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Yes, the other thing. I really don't understand men and their taste in women, seriously~ They tend to go for the wrong girls. They don't even know a good girl when they see one. The girls they do notice are the obvious ones -- bitches. Sad but true. 

Other times, guys just don't know exactly what they want. That, or they think they know what they want when in fact, what they choose only end up making them unhappy. Let's face it, only girls would know what they want and what guys would and SHOULD want.. 

I guess that's just human nature~ Men are physically stronger but women are mentally stronger. Makes a lot of sense with women's fragile structure. God's fair, none have the best of both worlds =D 

Well, here's a story~ E.w is attached to Ev, the girl he loves but to Ev, it's quite vague how he could fall for her so fast and that feeling stayed for a really long time. Meanwhile, she fell for him too but her love for him slowly depreciated. Unfortunately, it she is the type that gets bored of her man easily if he doesn't make her fall for him over and over again.

It was Ev's first time giving love a shot. She was convinced that she had finally learnt to fall in love and that was why she had said yes to him earlier. However, knowing that she was losing the feeling, she hid it from E.w because she wanted to see how her relationship would progress and telling the truth would ruin that. She didn't want to be a failure at it since they had gotten together for a short period of time.

So the relationship went on without E.w knowing about this. It became one-sided as E.w's love was stronger and Ev's was gradually depreciating. Over time, Ev ran out of things to say and E.w contributed most to their daily conversations. E.w thought things were going smooth but Ev had already seen how this was going to end. She realised that she hadn't had much to say to him and she was just wondering when she would have to face the music. All she could think about was ending things before E.w gets deeply hurt from it.

Meanwhile, E.w was being a real sweetheart, doing all the things that makes a girl happy. Ev felt really guilty for ever thinking about ending things and decided to drag things, to give him a chance. Things got better, or so she thought. Just when she started accepting him despite her parents' disapproval, things went haywire. 

He paid too much attention to her and started being open about the things he was unhappy with; the little things that matter. She knew she wasn't good at this since it was her first time so she apologised and changed for him. Over time, it happened again and all the more she felt that this relationship wasn't right for her. She could neither make him happy nor meet his expectations. Again, she wanted very much to let go but she thought back about the things he had done for her and how much she had meant to him.

So she decided not to let go. Over time, things worsened with assignments being in the way. She was the type who put her work as top priority and that really reflected in what happened to her relationship. All she could think about was work and she reduced talking to him. She started forgetting things about him and he noticed. He felt really neglected and unimportant to her, he started questioning if he was ever her man. 

It didn't help that E.w involved a third party in this. He thought that she was shifting her feelings for him to someone else from the way they interacted. He was beginning to feel paranoid as he thought that it was a two-way thing and he didn't want to lose her. It was never true. She just felt happier talking to him because she was better at talking to new people as friends and they weren't pointing out her mistakes in the relationship. Hence, they could talk about anything that doesn't make her feel down and lousy about herself. That was the part that he didn't realise and made him misunderstand.

E.w and Ev began to have less things to talk about and she was wondering how things would ever work out. All they could talk about was music and online jokes. Apart from that, they talked about assignments. Assignments also took up a lot of their time so there was minimal interaction because he had talked to the other group members more. 

In between these happenings, they had serious talks about where their relationship was going, the one thing that she had already anticipated would happen. Every time they had this talk, she convinced him that she still had feelings for him but she didn't know why she couldn't make him feel like they were in a relationship. It was true although she meant to say it to comfort him. 

As they had more talks about this, he started to realise that she wasn't really into the relationship any more. He realised that he was doing most of the talking and she couldn't open up to him. He kept asking her what he was doing wrong. He still wanted for their relationship to work out. Despite everything she put him through, he still loved her. 

She questioned that. She felt that he could have loved someone else; their group mate J. Him and J got closer from group assignments. They always have a lot of things to say to each other, their conversation would be continual if not almost continuous. They could talk to each other about their problems and are always there for each other. Ev felt that she was just getting in the way of a more beautiful relationship blossoming. Yet, E.w wanted to hang on. He never thought about J being the girl for him despite the similar interests they had and how much happier she made him feel. Ev could never understand this. She felt that if she were him, she would go for her instead because the most important thing to her in a relationship was communication; if there was chemistry. Apparently Ev felt that E.w and J had chemistry from the way they could talk about anything at all. This made Ev more withdrawn but she kept it buried deep down.

One fine day, E.w asked Ev if she really still wanted to go on with their relationship. He told her that he still wanted to go on and that the final decision was hers. He was a true gentlemen. Ev used this opportunity to ask for a break to see how things would go if they were friends again. She did this because she realised that they were better off as friends. Even he realised. 

The both of them realised that everything was sped up the moment they were together. At that point, they felt like they had already been together for years and there was nothing else they could talk about any more, as what happens in most marriages, yet they had only been together for slightly more than a month.   

Ev also wanted to give him the chance to realise that J was a better option for him. She also wanted him to make sure that he knew if his feelings for her were real. She had always questioned that with him falling for her so fast. They had only known each other for 2 weeks when he confessed to her and they got together. Plus, he had just finally gotten over his ex-girlfriend.

They came to an agreement that they would take a break after a special date. However, when Ev was ready to let him go, something happened on that special day. They were about to leave his place after calling it a day and E.w was being his normal lazy self, laying in bed because he dreaded heading out to send her off; he was just teasing. That reminded her so much of her sister, the most important person in her life. She went on playing with his palm with her finger and he tried grabbing it. They had this little playful moment going on and she saw how cute he was lying there smiling at her. That was when her feelings for him came back. That had just made her breaking up with him a lot more difficult.

Days went by and one particular day hurt her badly. She finally discovered jealousy. It was a day like any other, E.w and J were having a normal good conversation. Then, they suddenly went on talking about online jokes which Ev had already grown out of. That was when Ev decided to talk to her sister while they went on sharing those moments they had with that particular website. They were laughing really hard about a joke and when J shared it with her, Ev didn't get it. Little did she expect that to make her feel left out. What was worse, they later found out they had the same injury on the same spot for the same reason. They experienced a total revelation and Ev was out of the picture. That made her feel terrible because she had just rediscovered her feelings for him and there it was, that event mocking her, reminding her that E.w and J had chemistry that they never had as a couple. It made her realise how E.w felt when Ja (3rd party) could make her talk more than he could.

At the same time, that made her feel really upset. She was at the verge of crying while telling her sister about it as it was happening to her. She felt that the right thing to do was to break up with him and let J take her place of making him happy since all she ever made him feel was insecure, stressed and unhappy. As the saying goes, "If you love someone, let him go." She knew she would be deeply scarred but she had to do what was right.

Right now..

She wants very much to tell him everything that she's been feeling but it was very near examinations and he's been really busy with his meetings and his teaching J for exams. He hardly had the time for himself to study, he was feeling stressed and she doesn't want to add on to it. To this day, she's been holding on to her whole speech. She's decided to tell him after examinations for his sake although she feels like she would burst any time soon.

She herself has been feeling somewhat neglected although she knew she shouldn't be feeling that way because she had her own studying to do -- she wasn't supposed to care about anything else but her studies. She feels it because he hasn't been sending her back for two reasons; he's had meetings to attend and he'd needed early rest. Being busy, he has yet to reply her texts. She doesn't know why but most of the time now, their conversations would be really short and he would hardly text her first. 

This somehow makes her feel paranoid because she is so used to chatting with him a lot and having him being there for her all the time, sending her back all the time. At this point, she feels really confused if he is really giving her the space she needs to study (as she mentioned to him earlier about putting work first) while he does his own studying or if he doesn't quite care any more and wants to gradually be relieved of his responsibilities as her man since he knows that they're breaking up soon.

All she can hope for now is that they will end things in good terms and they can still stay as good friends like before they were together. She hopes that when this happens, he will find his happiness with J. Although she secretly wants things to work out with him, she has decided to let go and give someone else a chance to make him happy because that is how much she loves him. There is no point in her holding on when she's making him feel unhappy all the time. She just hopes that she can make him see what he should want; not her but J to be his. 

She just hopes that she doesn't jeopardise their friendship because she's looking forward to working with him and the rest of the team again for the next semester. She really likes her team mates now, Ty especially because they have more common grounds and they think alike. She really wants to establish good ties with all of them to make the best out of her college life while she can.

The story has not ended. It is to be continued some day. 

But hey, that totally proves my point on what men really want. Apparently men in the past and men now have one thing in common; they're still clueless. They cannot see things logically like how us women do when it comes to our emotional well-being.

All I can say is that having heard this story, I think I will be single for a really long time. Unless of course someone proves me wrong but haha, hardly. To this day, no one has been able to do it so I'm happy living my carefree life. 

What do you think?

Till the next time~